I take my estrogen in the morning
as I prepare for my daily judgment.
The lover who will not commit.
The child who furls at me confusingly.
The parade of exclusions from
cisgender women —
silently they say,
“you’re not one of us”.
Why would I do this?
Terraform my body from a
handsome man to a colorful woman.
So many things stand against me.
believe in the power and the presence
I feel it in my mind, my body, my blood,
and my soul.
Through the feminine I act,
not the feminine aspiring for the masculine,
lusting for patriarchy’s privilege,
no not through this,
but through the dismantling of privilege
and the appetite for it.
This is the feminine
and it is how we will change this
primitive, primitive world.
And this is why I take my pills.